Hello!

Can I just be honest?

My good friend Rej finally walked down the aisle a few days ago. Believe me, I am genuinely happy for them. After a long and winding road, sila pa rin talaga ang para sa isa't isa. That's rare. It took me sometime before I sent them a congratulatory message. And kanina, I watched their SDE and I can't help but cry..like cry na cry talaga. I guess it was partly because I felt how magical the moment for them. And the rest was because we were almost there but we fell out. Here I am wondering, will I have that same magical moment? 

I know I have seen saying na tanggap ko na if ito ang kapalaran ko, single forever but I know deep down in me, I want to have that rare moment. But how? I guess, hanggang dito na lang talaga siguro. Maybe in the after life, I'll be happier.

 Hello!

First of all, happy new year blog!

I have been trying to address certain issues or baggage from 2020 since the beginning of the year. I was like, new year, new me. Haha But I guess there are just days that nakakapagod to pretend. So, kaninang madaling araw, around 2am, I found myself crying and making hagulgol. I can't sleep and inside my mind were things that I was trying to forget. But nak ng, ang kulit. Hayyy.

I'll be turning 30 this year. So surreal. After my failed relationship, surprisingly, I still do believe in love. I want to love again but most importantly, I want to be loved. I want to be treasured. I want that love na wouldn't throw me just because things are rough. I want that security na no matter what, it will still be me. 

I still believe in love but am I too late for that now?

I still want my own family but how?

I am scared tbh. At this time, I guess love is one of the rarest things a person could have and I am.....