Hello!

 I'm really not good with words to express myself but I found some songs that say it all. So, here's the first of I-don't-know-how-many. 

I found a guy, told me I was a star
He held the door held my hand in the dark
And he's perfect on paper but he's lying to my face
Does he think that I'm the kinda girl who needs to be saved
And there's one more boy, he's from my past
We fell in love but it didn't last
'Cause the second I figure it out he pushes me away
And I won't fight for love if you won't meet me halfway
And I say that I'm through but this song's still for you
All I want is love that lasts
Is all I want too much to ask
Is it something wrong with me
All I want is a good guy
Are my expectations far too high
Try my best but what can I say
All I have is myself at the end of the day
But shouldn't that be enough for me
Ooh ooh ooh ooh, ooh ooh
And I miss the days
When I was young and naive
I thought the perfect guy would come and find me
Now happy ever after it don't come so easily
All I want is love that lasts
Is all I want too much to ask
Is it something wrong with me, oh
All I want is a good guy
Are my expectations far too high
Try my best but what can I say
All I have is myself at the end of the day
And all I want is for that to be okay

HANASH:
When I first heard this song, I was like 'Nice!' but when I played it over and over again, that was the time it hit me. This is my song. This is it! I actually cried gallons over this tears. I could still remember, it was after noon, I just came from work, I had this song on loop and suddenly I just found myself crying. ALL I WANT IS LOVE THAT LASTS line just hit different. It's all that I want but it was taken from me. And until now I do question myself, 'IS IT SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME?' I am still hurting and it sucks. ALL I WANT IS FOR ME TO BE OKAY but it's so hard.
I'm so tired.

#ALLIWANT