Hey!

I don't know what to do anymore.

I'm soooo lost.

My heart is soooo heavy yet it's empty.

It's just me now. I can't rely on anyone.

Ann was admitted last weekend.

Don is also tired from work.

Floxxy is also busy.

And the others have business and problems of their own.

And I couldn't find the guts to make singit.

After all, this is just a 'drama'.

You know, last year, I didn't cry while I was at school despite what happened but I don't know, kanina, I guess it was just to heavy to carry anymore. I cried, as loob ng CR syempre. I wanted to shout ng pagkalakas lakas. I wanted to shout, AYOKO NAAAAAA. PAGOOOOOD NA AKO. Pakiramdam ko, I lost myself and this time, it's real. FOr the first time, I am acknowledging na, indeed, I am so lost.

I am a hopeless case na siguro. I pray that a next lifetime, ma achieve ko whatever I am not able to do now.Maybe sa next lifetime, masayahin, maganda, hindi madrama and talented ako. Maybe sa next lifetime, pipiliin, paninindigan at mamahalin ako ng higit sa kaya kong ibigay.

But right now, the person that is typing is so fucking tired.

And gusto ko na magpahinga.