Last year, for the first time in my life I thought of taking my life away. I could already imagine the knife in my wrist. But I didn't have the courage to do so. Naisip ko sina mamang. Naisip ko, magastos pa para sa kanila an iuwi yung bangkay ko. And luckily, to this day, I never thought of that again, killing myself. Have I found the reason to live? No. I haven't. I may not have been successful in killing myself but you know what, I am okay if I die now. 

I've fought pretty hard. I tried and still trying on fixing myself. But damn I am still hurting and nobody could hear my cry. I am shouting for help but my voice only falls to deaf ears. 

If I die now, I hope I can be reborn again. This time, I will make sure that I will be a better one. I'll be stronger. 

I am tired na.