Hello.

I am having my breakfast while doing this post. I'm having my last big chunk of the banana cake I baked a few weeks ago and of course coffee. :) Luckily, my tummy's not acting up anymore. I think it's safe to say that it was not the coffee. I just need to have breakfast. Haha That's why here I am, although it's quite late for 'breakfast' today. 

Last night, as I was having my prayer, I cried. I guess the anxiety of the possibility of going back to that dark place is starting to kick in. I am nervous, tbh. I am still not the complete version of shayneVER.2.0. I am still a work in progress. Argh. Kainis.

Like I said, I know I'm still far from the end of the tunnel and it's okay. I just want to be happy. I don't wana cry anymore. That's sooo kapoy kaya.

Help.