Hello!

I guess no matter how I try to avoid making  this account as my emotional dumpsite,it cant really be avoided. I just need to let it out. It feels so heavy and I have nobody to talk to. And by that, I don't mean any disrespect to my friends but I know too well that they've got in theirs as well.

I'm so filled with sooo much anxiety. I feel like I am in the middle of nowhere. LOST. I'm feeling scared. 

I haven't been lucky both financial and in the field of love. Why? Tbh, I'm so broke right now. Hindi naman ako maluho and I have been prioritizing my bills pero wala pa rin. I have been trying to find a side hustle pero wala pa rin. Idagdag mo pa yung fact na ang daming nasisira o nawawala na gamit. Nakaka frustrate. Lagi na lang. Halos wala na nga akong nabibili na bago pero gipit pa rin. Bakeeettt?

3 yrs. and counting na akong single. My parents and others have been nagging me about getting married and having  a kid but paano kasi? Sana ganun kadali. And I don't want to settle for less just for the sake of having one. Is it wrong to want for someone that could love and treat me right? 

I have not been eating well lately. I threw up most of the time. I haven't seen a doctor due to lack of funds. Hindi na talaga ako natutuwa. Nakakapagod na. I haven't enjoyed eating for the longest time.

Lifeee. Bakit man ganito? Bakit ang daya? I guess, if I die, better. Bawi na lng sa next lifetime. Baka sali, maging tama na ang lahat.