Hello!

Tiktok is a huge part of my healing and recovery. It knocked some senses to me. It made me realize that those invalidated feelings were actually VALID and OKAY. It helped me unleash the 'true' me, ver3.0. It made me happy.

But... in a way, it also gave me false hopes but okay na, naka recover na. I'm focusing on myself, tingin sa harap, walang lingunan na ito..and still, thank you tiktok. Haha 

Tiktok's algorithm is weird as fuck. One day, you'll see videos about food the whole day, next, you'll see tarot readings (wag kyo maniwala, hindi totoo. LOL) all day. But these days, I'm into mom&babyTOK and that sucks. Like, OO, bitter na kung bitter pero autoBLOCK kayo. Sorry naman. HAHA Hindi kasi madala ng not interested button ihh, kaya bLOCK na lang. Kasi the more that I see it, the more I am reminded that I may not have the chance to experience that. I am reminded of what I don't have. That's actually the same reason why I unfollowed most in my FB. Almost all of them are engaged, married, preggy, nanganak, preggyforbabyno.2, nanganak. I am happy for them ha, don't get me wrong.

Sabi ni floxxy, don't lose hope daw. Pero how?

 Hello!

It's been a long time.

The thing is, I tested positive, COVID last Aug. 30th. 10 days of home quarantine. 10 days that felt like months. 

It took me some time to post it. But yes, Alhamdulillah, I am alive. I went back to work and trying to live a normal life. It's not easy. Akala ko, kembot to the right and left lang and boom shakalaka, normal na ulit. Madali pa rin ako mapagod kaya naka off ang dora mode ko and mas lumala ang hair fall ko. Slowly but surely, babalik din.

September's about to end. It went by so quick. 

I guess this is my 2nd life. So, YOLO v.2.0? Hell, yeah. Hahaha But I need funds ya know kaya sana, beke nemen, side hustle tayo dyan. Haha

I attended WCA's LT yesterday and the CEO said that most people die at 25 and are just waiting to die physically. I felt that. I died at 29 but I guess someone gave me the resurrection plant that's why I'm living like a zombie, with no direction. I regretted praying to be gone. I want to live pero with purpose hindi for the sake lang. I want to live talaga.